So, my plan is that on Wednesdays, I will write a sort of state of the union type of address. In these posts, I will just write from the top, bottom, and diagonal of my head. This means it will sometimes be about my health, like doctors I have visited and what they have said or ordered, and sometimes it will be about my philosophy on cooking and how and why I enjoy it.

It’s essentially going to just be a “How are you doing this week, Sam?” So, feel free to skip it if you want to. I don’t know if it will have anything to do with cooking or food, but it might. I might try to, I also might just write about what I’m feeling at that time.

Worries and Solutions

I have a lot of insecurities regarding this blog. I just don”t know if or how long I can keep up with this blog. I am wanting to keep up with this blog constantly, but I know that it is definitely a possibility that it will fall to the wayside if I get worse again. Worse for me is that brain fog creeps in and begins to strangle my ability to word, think, or put my thinking into words.

But I’m still going to do it because it’s important because I love cooking and it’s a really calming activity.

So, bear (I just had to search whether it was bear or bare, it’s apparently bear) with me as I try to be patient with myself.

Cooking I did this Week

On Saturday, I made Barbie’s Tuna Salad, a recipe I found on Allrecipes. It tasted absolutely amazing. My mom said that she wouldn’t like it because there was curry powder in it, but once I made it, she couldn’t get enough of it.

I struggled with the consistency of the sweet pickle relish. I can’t handle squeaky foods, which are foods where you bite into them and they squeak. And by can’t handle, I start dry heaving unless I take all of my willpower to not dry heave. Dry heaving and trying to not dry heave are not fun things to experience.

However, I have found for texture issues. If I have the squeaky thing with something crispy, like a cracker or toasted bread, then my brain can get past the consistency issue. The crispy or crunchy distracts my brain enough. Because I love the flavor of sweet pickle relish, just not the consistency.

So, on Sunday, my mom used the leftover Barbie’s Tuna Salad and made tuna melts out of it. Yeah, my mom did that. I was sleeping for most of the afternoon on Sunday…and today as well (about 18 hours of sleep because of several days of insomnia). I’m not able to cook that many meals each week, not as many as I would like.

And it makes it even more difficult that my sleep schedule is all sorts of insanity. One week, I’m sleeping at night from 3am to 11am, the next, I’m sleeping from 3pm to 11pm. Week to week and day to day, my sleep schedule completely changes.

I’m probably going to add Barbie’s Tuna Salad recipe to another thing to make something. I’m thinking cold spaghetti (cooked spaghetti that is then rinsed with cold water to make it cold) and this. I’m also going to add a step where you take the sweet pickle relish and ground it with a mortar and pestle because I want to try this on or in something that isn’t crispy (I do this when I use onions in recipes. By grounding it down, the onion releases all of its amazing oils which makes the dish even tastier.)

Health Update

I went to see my eye doctor yesterday and she found that my corneas don’t have inflammation anymore. But because it was most likely caused by dry eyes, if I stopped taking Restasis (the eye drops I’m taking), the cornea would probably become inflamed again.

Before I started taking Restasis, I was severely sensitive to light. I needed to wear dark tinted glasses all the time. Whenever I tried to put on my regular glasses (clear, non-tinted), I got a migraine within 20 minutes that would last until about 3-4 hours after putting on the tinted glasses again. Within 3 weeks of starting Restasis, I was able to wear clear glasses without any migraines. I’m still sensitive to certain lights, most notably the obviously created in the pits of hell fluorescents. But I wear a hat for situations where I have to be underneath them and it helps to an extent, a mild headache still shows up at those times, but it goes away once I’m out of that light within an hour or two.

Conclusion

So, there we are. I’m nervous about not being able to keep up with this blog, but screw it because I’m going to do it anyway, allowing myself to miss days if I have to.

The schedule I’m wanting to go with for this blog is this.

Mondays: Mini-tip
Tuesdays: Recipe
Wednesdays: State of the Kitchen
Thursdays: Recipe
Fridays: Mini-tip